BUT.

I know I am stronger than this but right now, I can't seem to find the strength I had fourteen months ago. I need that now. I need the Kamille from fourteen months back, even if it wasn't the Kamille you knew and loved. If I can't make you come back, I want to make the pain go away because I know I don't deserve this...

Six years and yet...

God, please don't scare me :,(