ADDITION

I'm sorry but there's something I want to add to my post

This year I want a tattoo on my lower back that says YOU WISH but my parents will kill me and Dean says it hurts

Bye

2009, be mine?

2009 starts in roughly 5 hrs and 30 minutes. The arrival of a new year is most of the time embraced with faithful promises of starting anew, of getting rid of vices, of changing for the better, and whatnot. For this year though, I have none of these as I've decided 2009 is my year to recuperate.

If anything, all I have right now is confusion and I know it won't get better anytime soon. But I will try harder, swear I will.

2008 wasn't my year. Last new year, I decided to take a risk for myself and for someone. But then again, I guess I decided a little too late. Just 3 days after the start of this year, my heart was broken (4 January 2008). It was hard to pick myself up again but I tried and eventually, I pieced myself back together.

Summer (especially May 2008) wasn't necessarily happier but I was contented. I dove right back in with eyes closed... then I learned that even if chlorine hurts my eyes, it wouldn't hurt as much as not knowing how deep I was going and how far before I drown. (I drowned, by the way)

The second -ber month is where the mess I am in now started. The third -ber month, I lost my Mama Cecy and, well, the mess became greater. Christmas Eve 2008, my dad and I had the greatest fight ever. We weren't 'friends' (hehehe "let's make peace, let's make friends" by Tito Eloy) 'til after Christmas. Christmas 2008, all Untalan Christmas traditions broken. We miss you Lolo. 

New Year's Eve, I confessed I'm not worth it. But I will try to be.

My point? No regrets, no giving up. Tanggap lang nang tanggap. Basta Ikaw, Lord!

I can't promise myself a better year but why not try? ("But it's heaven at least to try..." DAYS, BABY) Who said I'm giving up?

2009, be mine?

I've missed you like cray-zey

ONE MORE TIME, FUCKERS!

Break!

I need a break from JSTOR. Hahaha. Grabbed from Elena's site.

FACT: about the person you like at the moment.


We argue a lot. Haha.

WHAT: happened at 9:00 am today?


I was asleep.

ARE YOU: wearing something you borrowed from someone?


Nope.

WHAT: is the last thing someone bought you?


Someone got me dinner from FlapJacks.:-) Thanks, anak!

WHO: took your profile picture?


Photographer.

WHAT'S: your current problem?


Letting go of the past?

WHO: was the last person you saw?


My brother.

THE LAST: thing you freaked out on?


The video Dean showed me. CRY!!!

WHERE: did you last go?


Greenhills.:-)

SOMETHING: you say when you are mad?

Nothing. I shut up.

DO YOU: delete people off of multiply?

Yeah.

DO YOU: crack your knuckles?

Eeek, sometimes.

ARE YOU: ticklish?


Very!

ARE YOU: happy right now?

Confused but yes, happy.

WHO WAS: the last person you talked to last night before bed?

Nixie.

WILL YOU: be driving in a year?

If dad gets an automatic.

HAVE YOU MADE: a mistake this past week?


Yes hehe

DO YOU KNOW: anyone with the same name as you?

Yeah but different spelling.

WHEN WAS: the last time you really laughed?                                                                                     


Hmmm, last night.

HOW LONG: is your hair?


Oh it's long haha.

HAVE ANY: regrets?

Yes. Joy to the world. Get it? Hahahahaha (GAGO KA DEAN)

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

Researching.

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?

:-)

Is there a secret you've never told your parents?  

Yes hehe

Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?


I shall keep that to myself.

Are you an emotional person?


Yes but I hate showing it.

What’s something that can always make you feel better?


Being around my homies. My number oneSSS!

How’s your heart lately?

What heart? (WEH, EMO)

How many people do you have 'a thing' for right now?

Shutthefuckup.

Were you happy when you woke up today?

Yes.

Do you sing?


Yes, I hold concerts in the shower and in my room while preparing to go out. (OVERSHARE)

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?


Talk about them to my closests and then hide them from all the others.

What’s on your bedroom floor right now?

Slippers.

What do you currently hear?


Milo making papansin.

Did you have a dream last night? 

I don't think so.

Are you easily scared by horror movies?

YES OKAY. YES. Happy?

Does someone like you right now?

Grabe yun oh! No.

Are you taller than 5'5?

No.:-(

Have you ever felt replaced?

YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tell me something that made you laugh yesterday?

Jessie's reaction hahaha.

What are you thinking about right now?

RM, SPEC, IPE and IE.

Do you smile often?

No. Many think I'm masungit but trust me if you see me smiling all the time, you'd find me weird.

Do you miss someone?

Yes.

How many times have you seen your favorite movie?

One too many! Hahaha.

Has anyone ever called you a man?

Woah? Hahaha. Of course not.

Ever liked someone that you didn't think you stood a chance with? 

Does liking Justin Timberlake count? Hahaha.

Is someone on your mind right now?

Yes. Or no. Okay fine. Could be a yes.:-D

Never as cold as you

Falling hurts and patience is everything.

But I'm only humannnnnnn.

I'm not giving up.

Hitting two birds with one stone? Hard. Hitting yourself and two birds with one stone? Harder.

Get the picture.

It's all me again, thanks.

Tanggap lang nang tanggap, diba?

Read on, pirates!

I shall postpone writing a Christmas entry as I only have this for now.

I went online and opened the BBC News page (Asia-Pacific region) yesterday. The headline? China Begins Anti-Piracy Mission. My cousin, Krix, and I were surprised. How could this be possible when the country is in fact the land of everything pirated? Funny. We read on...

Oh well. Here's the link: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/africa/7799899.stm

(It will disappoint you. Hahaha.)

Thank you.

My brother and I had the biggest fight earlier. It was not a bad thing though cause both of us realized so much, and contrary to what we thought about each other, both of us were carrying the same burden. If there is one thing I learned from all the drama, it's that for anything, through anything, and with anything, I have him to go home to.

Thank you, Iñigo. Know that you have me too.

Hooked on GG

Blair: A woman needs to be with a man who thinks of only her. Anything else is a non-starter. Tell him how you feel.

Serena: We broke up, remember?
Aaron: How did we break up if we're not going out?

Gossip Girl: They say summer love is fleeting. But sometimes what starts as a fling, can lead to the real thing. A simple trip to the beach can be all it takes to clear our heads and open our heads, and write a new ending to an old story. There are those who got burned by the heat. They just want to forget and start over. While there are others who want each moment to last forever. But everyone can agreed on one thing - tans fade, highlights go dark, and we all get sick of getting sand in our shoes.

Chuck: Please don't leave with him.
Blair: Why? Give me a reason... and "I'm Chuck Bass" doesn't count.
Chuck: 'Cause you don't want to.
Blair: That's not enough.
Chuck: 'Cause I don't want you to.
Blair: That's not enough.
Chuck: What else is there?
Blair: The true reason I should stay right where I am and not get in the car. Three words. Eight letters. Say it... and I'm yours.
Chuck: I... I ... [pause]
Blair: Thank you. That's all I needed here.