Good morning!

It is almost 5 am. WHEW. Pulled a successful all nighter. (By successful, I meant I really didn't sleep. I still don't know if all this will pay off though. I will know in a matter of hours.) I didn't go home, by the way. I crashed at Anj's place tonight (I meant last night, sorry).

Good morning, world!:-) New day, better day, definitely.:-D

News? Not really.

Nothing new, really. It's the same issue but this time, I think I know better. I trusted you but time and again, even as my friend, YOU BROKE MY HEART.

Thanks to you, you know who you are. Thanks for letting me know. I know I deserved to. And on top of all these, thanks for bailing me out of issues, which came from someone whom I thought I could trust. I owe you some.

I'm tired. (Maria inspired.)

I know. But I don't think so because there's a calm under the waves, you know?

Wish I could be the sand that the water drowns.

LAHAT NAMAN KAYO E!!!!!!!

What more, huh?

This has got to be the worst day of 2008. Please. Is there anything else you want to give me? All this is more than I can carry. God please just take it away.:-(

Only one thing went right. And it was you, as always. Thanks. That was all I needed to hear. I love you, Marcky.

Farewell, so long, good bye :-|

Done and done. At least two down, yes? "At least." God, why do I have to settle for the least when there's so much more? Hmmmm. "You can never be too complacent. It's time to move one." You, sir, are smart! But...

Why is everyone leaving? This is a serious question and I want it answered now. I got very teary-eyed when he was delivering his "farewell" speech last night. I will miss taking a fag at the smarea with him, Ish and Danica. I will miss the way he laughs when he gets pissed off because no one read for class. I will miss the way he says "di'ba?" from time to time while lecturing us. I am serious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:-(:-( :-(

I'm too sad he's leaving. I am serious.

I missed Maria!

I guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down
Just to keep you around
Cuz the day that you realize how amazing you are
You're gonna leave me.

You're the only one who
Holds my hair back when I'm drunk and get sick
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean.

(You're the Only One, Maria Mena)

Hahahahahahaha song made me laugh big time. I missed listening to her song. Awwww. K, bye now.

House arrest.

Due to my mishap last night, Eagle and mother dearest decided to get me on house arrest. God, the agony.:-( Anyway, dad turned off wifi too so I was practically stuck with my cellphone, a bag of Snickers and Zuma. Sigh. Only accomplished work? My part for the Work Soc paper. HOW DARE ME!!!!!

Anyway, here's what I did before sleeping for the longest time in N  weeks.

Too hyper thanks to Snickers. Bye!

P.S. Hey you, I promise never to fight you again.:-( THANK YOU!!!

Dude, come on.

My heart is beating as loud as a drum right now and I am in no way kidding. I haven't gotten sleep and the only thing I had with me the whole night was coffee. I didn't realize Pol Eco life could get this lonely at times. I was wide awake while everyone else was asleep and I had no one to accompany me but dear Nescafé. It's not funny. Please.

Sayonara.

P.S. It's my PET report today. I am going gaga over the mathematical equations I have researched for Sen's Social Choice Theory. PRAY FOR ME. Dude. Come on.

Justice. What justice?

I've been reading A. Sen's reading for a week now. Do I understand him? No.  I should "love my philosopher", I know that. I'm trying alright but I barely even know him. He and I? Not in good terms right now. I'm giving it an hour or so then I'm gonna pull a major nerd trick (in my dreams).

Where's justice now, huh?

Stupidity.

Sorry I am so dumb. Anyone can drop me anytime.

More than I can carry.

Only so much.

I'm not so strong, you know.

Choux Pastry.

Third time to blog today. SORRY. Stole this from Triccie's Facebook account (Thanks, Triccie!). We made this while studying for Dev:

No, I wasn't asking you to look at the sketch/spectrum. I wanted you to read our Dev reading.

(I'm kidding.)

That's all. Ta-ta.

Respectfully, BJ Loong.

Dear Kam,

Well, here it is.

I've gone over the research I've compiled and I genuinely think we ought to use the three countries mentioned in the proposal as case studies to demonstrate pertinent immigration issues with regard to immigration issues and policy concerning integration and human rights.

Respectfully, BJ.

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Actually, he sent me the wrong file, haha. But I was seriously touched with the 'Dear Kam,' thing, sorry.

RMNADO, EAY?

I'm happy cause it's another rainy day.:-) Not that I like being rained on. It's just that the rain makes me want to work. Rainy days, coffee and school work. Seems like a perfect mix to me. The only thing that ruined it was that bitch of a girl who found the need to step up and on me. How cute. How uncooperative.

Random injection: I see a big walking booger in front of me. I want to kick its ass... not that it has an ass but you know how boogers can be such big asses. Gross. And there's an annoying girl beside me. "Mek pahiya yerself." Alam mo, hindi ka bourgeois, don't attempt. It irritates me. You wouldn't want to irritate the booger, too. Baka tumalsik sa'yo. Cute niyo e.

Sorry. I have nothing else to say. I tried to think (really) but as I mentioned in my previous posts, all my BC's (brain cells... close kami e) have left me. I shall continue looking for them now by continuing my PET report. Sayonara!

Sentence.

There HAS to be something better than this, better than what I can give.

Where have all my BCs gone? They must be somewhere in my, um, I forget where I kept them.

Boo.

They're JUST missing.

My pencil case and planner are missing and I seem to be losing my sanity too. I have been looking for them since yesterday. I think I am going ballistic. I cannot read without my pens. I am scared of skipping school load just cause my pens are missing. UGGGH.

They say, "the dignity of man depends on 'being' and not 'having'". But how can I BE without HAVING my pens with me? How?:-(

Sigh.

Toodle-oo.

My vungs are vack.

As you can see, my vungs are vuck. (Sorry I just felt like typing it that way.) No, actually, I know you can't see it. That was exactly my point and precisely why I wanted it dark. See, I think my hair cut looks funny. Sigh. Um, that's all.

P.S. I am studying alone. I miss my homies.:-/ Boohoo.

P.P.S. Tito Ted is so fly. See photo below.

Byeavads.:-/

Tugger.

I think I know why now. But it's only what I think and not what you really think so it doesn't matter. Then again, if what I'm thinking is right, it makes you (the whole you) all wrong. I don't mean to burst your bubble. It's just that you like confusing me, silly. You are such a tugger. I do not want any more mind tricks. You see, I have enough playing inside my head. It's not easy, you know? You can't just step in when you want to, make a bigger mess (than the mess that already exists cause of school) in my mind and then leave it like that for me to fix again. Everything is mixed up as it is, so if you don't mind, please stop bothering me. 

Oh but then again, you aren't my 'tugger' for nothing. See, I am already this close to snapping but I will not because I have better things to do. Why am I reacting this way, you ask? It's not so much the emotional investment, okay. It's no longer about the fact that once upon a time, you actually broke my heart. Nope. It's not. Those, I have already let go. You see, on top of everything was the friendship we built and was broken. It cannot be mended if you keep doing this. It is not funny. It is not cute.  I appreciate the effort of you wanting to "talk" in spite of the fact that this "patching things up" talk is 8 months overdue. But if you weren't ready or don't really want to, then don't come up to me, ask me to talk and then leave me hanging. You've already done that, okay. And enough is enough. I will not wait for two weeks again to talk to you and end up realizing you actually forgot I exist. I have nothing against you. If you ask me, I want to talk. I've been wanting to since day 1 of 1/8 month because I have too many questions at the back of my mind and I need them answered just so I know I can trust you again as my friend. I still care and I never wished you bad, but please, stop confusing me for our friendship's (at least what's left of it) sake. Thank you.

Sorry I had to let this out. It's just that talking to two good friends had to trigger this memory.

Okay now. Toodles.

Not enough.

Hello, Kam. Your efforts still aren't enough. Go to sleep now and study tomorrow.

Bye.

P.S. You two are the best. Mwa!

Pierce Brosnan. This is for you Mom!

Mom and I talking...

Me: Ma, look, I made a blog entry before (I show her my entry http://kaaaam.multiply.com/journal/item/27)
Marich: Laughs. Grabe, si Pierce Brosnan is also handsome. Parang... (does the drool face.)
Me: (Blank face.)

Ma, please don't do this. (I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING!!! HAHAHAHAHA!)

KRIZIA FRANCINE VALDEZ UNTALAN

I have missed you terribly.:-( Thanks for yesterday!